Rico and I are over, It’s fresh. It’s been a few weeks. It’s the loneliest, emptiest weeks I’ve ever experienced in my life… Wala akong short answer for it. Hindi ko rin siya malabas ng iisang statement lang kasi hindi gan’un kadali. Sobrang complicated niya na situation.
Rico and I, our universe was so beautiful. It was so full of love, laughter, music, everything… its spontaneity, everything. Sa five years namin together, we were always on the same page. Always on the same page. But I don’t know what happened to me.
Maybe I turned to the next page, saw a new perspective sa life. I had visions of who I want to become, how I want to evolve. I’m so curious about the world. And the truth is I am going through changes. And alam namin, natin na ‘yung change it’s either good or bad.
But what I hate about change is that it’s inevitable. Hindi mo siya matatakasan. And wala ka nang ibang gawin kundi you have to face it and confront it kasi it’s been in the back of my head. So yeah, I told Rico about it. I told him my problems, my issues sa buhay and he took it like a man. He took it like a man.
It was a very difficult talk ‘cause I love him so much. I love him and he loves me. But I have so many questions about my life. And how would I go on sa buhay with him when I have so many questions about me, my sense of self.
It was so difficult, but it was a very polite separation. And to the very end of our relationship, it was still full of love, full of understanding. And Rico is one of a kind.
- Maris Racal
